Buy or create?

I'm also struggling with a desire to buy a musical software update. I'd like to create some music, and maybe even do something meaningful with it (like release it on BandCamp or something). However, I'm also jealous of our finances-- I don't want to put the family in any financial risk, and there's no real need to do so.

So should I use what I have, or should I buy the upgrade (which is to software I did buy a long time ago, and really did use way back when)? I just don't really know.

And I could also write prose. However, I really don't have any ideas in that regard. But it would cost even less.

Or I could paint minis I own.

I just can't get anything moving, and that lack of forward progress is killing me. Even if I did release something, would I find it enough to satisfy, or would I just be upset that I'm not making something even more meaningful? And what is meaningful any more?

So here I type instead of doing my actual work. This isn't healthy either. Grrrr.